Trying to process this week..........

 

I am trying hard to process all that has happened this week.  Aren't we all?  I am finding it very hard to come up with words for all that has happened. The week started off for me with a UTI, not fun at all my friends and ended with a massive migraine.  By mid week I was home early from work because my stomach was just so upset with the medication I was on.  I was back to work on Wednesday, a day we will all remember just exactly where we were when our democracy was assaulted by a madman encouraging others to rise and destroy what our nation holds dear. In the home I was at, staunch trump supporters I might add, I tried to listen to what the dreaded and misleading Fox news was saying, but I was too far away.  But not to far to not see the images flashed across the screen of angry and violent rioters, not patriots I might add, storming and trying to destroy our Nations Capitol.  It still, days later is so hard for me to even comprehend.  It is hard to digest, to really think it wasn't just a very bad movie with horrible actors in a twisted plot scene that was never going to be real.  Yet, here we are.

I would like to say I have been through all the regular feelings of anger, disbelief, rage, and an inability to fully comprehend what has happened.  But the most I have felt, after all that has happened for five years, because I am counting the year of lies and horrible behavior before that last election in 2016, what I feel is not surprised.  I am frankly not surprised we are here in this place.  When you elect a madman this is what you get.  When you support a man, who has said or tweeted over 23,000 confirmed lies, this is what you get.  When you elect a man, who has over 372,000 Covid deaths on his black soul, this is what you get.  I blame him, I blame those spineless republicans in the House and Senate who perpetuate lies of election fraud just to flame the crazy base that supports him.  But most of all I blame the voters that support him.  And if that is you, well so be it.  I blame the average American who seeks to believe in lies and not the truth of what really happens in elections that are safe and true.  I blame those that made this man a God, a God above the God they have pledged to love and believe in.  I blame those that think lie, after lie, after lie are all okay, hurting women, taking children away from their families at the border, hurting our environment, inciting violence, changing our relationships with countries across the globe, being friendly with deadly dictators, and supporting those of great wealth at the cost of so many.  I blame those that feel God elected him but did not do so for other presidents like Barak Obama or Joe Biden.  I blame all Americans that believe their gun rights are more important than human rights.  I could go on and on, but feel like it has already all been said.  

I pray for our country, I also pray for all of those who have led us on this path.  I don't believe for one minute I am better than anyone, but I do believe, we as a civilized society, or what I thought was a civilized society, need to help those in need.  That it is our moral obligation to help, and don't start throwing out Socialism comments on this blog because I won't have it.  Our government pays for Medicare, Social Security and Medicaid, it provides education and healthcare to those in need.  So if you are lucky enough to receive any of these things, if you or a loved one has ever received unemployment or food stamps then you need to stop talking about Socialism to me.  I am blessed that Little Buddy gets Medicaid for all of his specialists, medications and therapies, we would not have been able to adopt him if he did not get this help, frankly we could not afford to help him.

So if you made it this long in this very wordy blog post I thank you.  If I have offended you so be it, I wish you well as you move on from this space of mine in blogland, and I wish for you that you see the reality of what has happened in the last four years, not my reality, but the factual reality of what a mad man has done to our country. I wish that you see the facts.  And I wish, as a country, we can come to terms with what has happened the last four years, cumulating this past week with one of the darkest moments in our history, and that we can move forward. 

Stay safe my friends, stay safe.