Friday, August 17, 2012

Ohio State I Hope You Are Ready

Today is the big day.  My son has left with his Father for his new adventure at Ohio State.  I am a mess, lets just get that one out of the way right now.  I can not stop crying, I feel like someone has cut a chunk of my heart out.  I really enjoy my son, so his presence will be missed.  Really missed.
 Packed up and ready.  My husband has a huge list of things to get once they get there,  That ought to be amusing both of them shopping for shampoo, school supplies an laundry detergent. 
 I took Max outside this morning right after I woke Mr. 18 year old up and look what I found.  This feather was on the grass right next to my driveway.  Another sign of good things to come, I hope.
 Max is going to be devastated.  Remember he really acts more human than dog.  He has been upset with all the things on my dining room table, and then those bags came out and were packed up, horrible, just horrible for my Max.  So after they left for the airport I opened the back door so Max could bark at the pool as it turned on for the day.
We will all adapt, I know we will.  I know I have rasied him for this day.  But I am still really sad.


Jeanmarie DiTaranto said...

Yes, you will adapt. And you will be so proud of your son. Wishing you all the best. Go knit something!

Claudia said...

Sweetie, we love you and know how hard this is for you. And for Max. Love you.


Dee said...

Oh baby ... I remember when Stephen went to college like it was YESTERDAY.

Do you find yourself walking by your son's room and just busting into tears? I did.

When DH gets back, you two treat yourself to a fancy dinner and HAVE the dessert. Then remember what a great kid you've raised, take a deep breath and talk about all the things you can do now that you don't have a "kid" underfoot!

Sadness really DOES give way to a great deal of happiness and pride when you start hearing of all the accomplishments they are making away at school.


Neicee said...

I know how you feel. My Son Chose Kodiak Alaska to start his career in the coast guard. I felt like he was at the other end of the world! I used to call the chaplan up in Alaska to check in on him! He will be fine like you said you raised him for this day! Max still has you!

Kris said...

Oh how I feel your pain Meredith!!! I know how you feel. And even knowing he will be okay...we mothers just never stop worrying. I have been an absolute wreck with worry over my son leaving.
: (
XO Kris

Pooch said...

It's a milestone day, isn't it? Been there myself, sending a son from Colorado to THE Ohio State University. He's a proud Buckeye alum now, yet I do remember the empty ache and the pride in his ability to achieve his goals.

Reach for the yarn and needles. These rights of passage are so emotional for us as parents. Bittersweet. Roots and wings.



You'll be fine. I've been through this twice and once you're done crying, you'll stop. Don't judge or rush yourself.

Hang in there,


Suz Pinner said...

aah! Sad day, but good he feels confident to go off into the big wide world and that is down to you so don't feel sad he will be back asap I am sure and you can get a hug or two

Teresa said...

Yes sad. but look at the great young man you raised! I will never know about this first hand, but I can tell that you and hubby did a wonderful job in raising him. Just think of all the stories he will bring home to share! Hugs, my friend.

Cozy Little House said...

Yes, it comes and we're not ready. But in a few months, you'll have filled up your schedule and it will get easier.

Grayseasailor said...

Sending more feathery hugs your way...please pass some on to Max, too.
Oh, and about the surprise visit from your hidden friend in your last post, I had a little tree frog visit one of my planters a few months ago, which I enjoyed, too!
There is so much wonder and beauty in the world around us... perhaps sadness and separation help us appreciate that more, huh?
Gracie xxx

mynestofyarnandbuttons said...

Ah Meredith I send you a really big hug, this is a very hard day. Yup, it will get better but I feel your pain. Do some special things for yourself this weekend : ) Hugs for Max too!

kathy b said...

Cry it out!!! Be glad you are not there for the move in.....
Max is so astute!!!

Hopefully your son will communicate often with you as you adjust to his new surroundings! !

have you mailed a care package yet/? that always helps me....

Stitchy Mc Floss said...

((hugs)) my friend, and prayers, too. The feather is to let you know that even as he spreads his wings to fly, his heart will always be home. :)

Max is so gosh darn cute! He makes me smile every time I see him at that pool! So cute. :)

Blessings always

brsmaryland said...

Oh Meredith, I know this is a bittersweet day for you. You will pull through and I'm so excited for your son. It will be SO DIFFERENT from life in Fla. He will have his own adjusting ahead of him too. The feather is a sign, for sure. Stay positive!
p.s. - Go Buckeyes! I'm tickled that we're now on the same team - ha!

Shari said...

Oh Meredith...I know you have a heavy heart today but just know that he will be ok. He is starting a new chapter in his life and I am sure you raised him well to be able to achieve anything he is set out to do.
Keep your chip up and it's ok to cry....I know I would be!
Lots of hugs to you!
Shari ")

Susanne said...

You are sad, and rightly so. This is a bittersweet moment is it not? Wanting to hang on and yet knowing it is time to let go. All the things you groomed him for will pay off and he will be just fine. I saw that this week the freshmen are moving in at BGSU and Toledo, so no doubt the rest of the country is feeling the bustle of the freshmen rushing in to their dorms. I never got my pc till after my daughters left home for college. For 2 years they were both in college at the same time. It was rough. I looked forward to holidays. My girls were a little over an hour away, but as the years passed they came home less frequently. They got jobs at college to help with expenses and that was all good. Sometimes they came home and brought me their laundry, hummmm. You will be fine. When he comes home he will have stories to tell, and don't forget to email him. He is as close as your finger tips and of course there is always the cell or telephone. But one thing, you can knit him a sweater or hat in school colors and a scarf to match. Who knows, maybe his friends at school will see what you made him and want to buy some off of you. You just never know.
(((HUGS))) Susanne :)

Susanne said...

Forgot to say....the knitted stuff will come in handy, OHIO IS COLD IN WINTER!
Susanne :)

Fay said...

Hang in there! I can't imagine how you feel -I would be devastated too! My kids are still in high school. Sending hugs!

Sentimentally Me said...

Awwwwwww. You've done a good job, and he's READY.

I don't think WE, as mothers, ever really are.

Hang in . . . . . . he's still really just your little guy!

xo P

Susanne said...

Come back if you have a moment, I put a reply to your comment on my last post. Seems I am always rattling on and on and once again I did not disappoint myself, lol
Did Max come out of the closet yet? I thought about him all evening after I read your post, he is a blessing to you, loyal companion and just "one of the boys". Don't you just love how they have their own unique personality?
(((BIG HUG))) Susanne :)

vicki said...

Hi Meredith-- well, we've all been there. It's definately an emotional time. It's what we work for in raising our children-- and yet when it comes-- it's the saddest day ever. Like your friends here have said-- it will get better-- and it really will. In addition to all the stuff he took with him when he left-- he's packing along all of your hopes and dreams. I've no doubt he will make you proud--
Chin up--