As you know the first few months of the year have been a whirlwind for us. A new little one and losing loved ones, all mixed up with lots of work and the daily grind of life. We are now about to lose my Mother. Her time is very, very near. This past week I have spent as much time as I can with her, watching her sleep peacefully, drifting away. I sit by her bedside trying to crochet, but my mind wanders to her life and what she has meant to me. I watch her take each breath knowing that they are all so numbered now. I feel her pulse weakening and I sit and watch her. I talk to the wonderful people who have taken such good care of her and thank them for being there for her at this part of her life.
Life is a wonderful ride, and she has had a great one. She was adored by her parents, absolutely loved and cherished by my Father. She had four children, 11 grandchildren and 8 great-grandchildren. She has always been there for us and for that I am so thankful. Of course I know we have had some ups and downs, but they have been minimal and for that I am thankful. So for now I am going to be quiet, take some time and be with her when I can, and hope that her transition is as peaceful as I hope. She has had a wonderful life, not without loss and struggle, we all have that, but isn't she lucky to have lived so long and loved so much? We should all be so lucky. She has been suffering for years, deteriorating slowly, this is the final step and she can finally be free. I feel sad and happy for her all at the same time if that makes any sense at all. She never wanted this, to live in a nursing home fully dependent on others for her care, she has always been fiercely independent and frankly very stubborn.
I may pop in to visit, I may read a blog or two, but please excuse me if I don't comment, I just need to take some time and be with this transition in my life. You are all so lovely, I won't be gone for long, just a day or two to regain my momentum
Hope you all have a great week and I will see you soon.