Thursday, July 10, 2014

I'm tired, how are you?

If you are looking for happy and cheery today you had better move onto the next blog.  I am nothing if not honest and I have to tell you I feel exhausted.  Two weeks of issues with my Dad, two weeks of extra appointments with Little Buddy that have lasted hours, two weeks of working long days and this week working extra, have left me completely whipped.  I am tired, not thinking clearly and frankly, extremely crabby.  Thank goodness the weekend is near.  I need some time to breath.  Not much progress has been made on anything but in the spirit of honesty I think we may have to take a look.

Oh awesome Berroco kiribati sweater made of very fun  Berroco Karma, I am in love with you but will you ever get finished?

Oh awesome table runner made from Berroco Boboli Lace, I love you yet you have only grown a few inches this week.  Maybe we can play together this weekend.

Oh Olive Twist Shawl, I  love you so much, your twisted stitch is such an interesting design element.  I love it even more that you were created by the lovely Sue of Mr Micawber's Recipe for Happiness, who designed you so brilliantly.   I have put in a few rows on you in the evenings, but it has been short and sweet, as I quickly realize I am making mistakes because I am too darn tired to crochet.

You crocheters out there have to try this pattern, look at this row of twisted stitch, I love it.  Yes I know showing you a gray shawl on gray pavers is not ideal, but I do not have enough energy to try and find a better place for a photo shoot.

There have been moments of beauty, these lovely lilies popped up from some bulbs I was given by a friend a few years ago.  They pop up several times a year but only stay a day or two.

And I received a surprise in the mail all the way from Kuwait!  Now many of you know and adore my friend Tammy, but if you haven't met her yet you need to pop on by her blog T's Daily Treasures. 
You will be uplifted and feel so positive just for taking the time to visit.  Tammy is so genuine and loving.  She is the blogging friend you want to live right next door to so you can pop over for tea and a chat (as many of you are).  Tammy has a son in Colorado going to school, a teenage son at home and a wonderful husband.  She lives in an incredible area and takes her readers on many very interesting trips and adventures.  Tammy is creative, loving and so positive.  Pop on over and make a new friend.

I was so surprised and so touched by this package.  Tammy you made my very hectic, very exhausting week, so much nicer and I thank you for that.  How did you know when you were making this dishcloth, all the way around the world from me, that I would need it this week?

And look Lemon Verbena tea from Jordan!  I hate to drink it, it is so special.  A thousand thank you's to you Tammy for your kindness, friendship and generosity.

Now onto this guy.  Can you believe this sweet face, this sweet boy giving Fluffy a ride in his dump truck has been throwing some hair raising tantrums.  I know you can not even imagine it with this smile.  Oh, yes the three's have hit with a vengeance.  My little guy's brain works so much faster than he can communicate his needs, which only makes things worse.  Ah, this too will pass. 

But on a good note he saw the eye doctor today and he was very pleased with Little Buddy's progress.  Yes his eyes turn in a bit, yes he still has issues, but he is holding strong and steady and is wearing his glasses, that is a feat all on its own!

We also made a trip to his Physiatrist (a muscle and bone expert). He could not believe that just six short months ago Little Buddy was only pulling up to stand, he was not even crawling with his braces on.  He was thrilled to see my little man walking with his posterior walker, Little Buddy even chased the doctor down the hall and found him hiding in a  exam room.  It was worth the four hours of driving, waiting and waiting some more to see the doctor.  We do not have to go back for 9 months which is a very long time for a 3 year old with cerebral palsy.  So all is not doom and gloom here, there have been very bright moments in an otherwise stressful and tiring week or two.

So how are you? 


soleillucie said...

I'm not good in English and I will use the translator for my next sentense.
It is the love you have for your little one that will give you all the strength "force " for events (hours of travel, waiting hours) to come.

Lucie, la maman d'Olivier spina-bifida xxx

kathyinozarks said...

I am tired today too-but for me it's our ups and downs in the weather-super hot one day down to the 70s and 50s the next--but I am not tired any more after reading about your week-hugs
I love all your projects-all so pretty I want to touch them.
I love Tammy too-I got a surprise in the mail a couple days ago-and like you I soooo needed a pick me up-she is a very special lady and am so glad to have met her.
Hope your weekend can be a relaxing one

mamasmercantile said...

Hope you're feeling a little better and not so tired soon, not that easy I know with a three year old. All your projects are delightful particularly the crochet shawl, that is just stunning. Try and have a relaxing fun filled weekend.

Anonymous said...

I always love the blog posts that include a picture of Little Buddy. I am so glad that he got good reports from his doctor.

Now, Meredith, you can tell me to shut my trap, but I have something to ask. Would it be a possible to take a break from working while Little Buddy is so little???

I hate to read that you are wearing yourself out! Sometimes we have to let one ball drop and pick it up again later.

On the other hand ....only YOU know what is right for you. And, as always --- I'm in your corner to cheer you on when the times get a little rougher than you would like.

Christina said...

I am dog tired, too. Your little man is gorgeous, I am so glad he is doing well. I have a 5 year old who finds it difficult to communicate his emotions and feelings (delayed speech being his biggest problem), resulting in mind-blowing tantrums. It is not easy to deal with, especially if you are tired. Thinking of you. I do so love your table runner and wonder if I could make something as beautiful? Cx

Judy S. said...

Wow, Mere, it sounds like you could use an afternoon off! Wish I were close enough to pop on over and give you one. Looks like you have some fun projects going there; it's always harder, IMHO, to get stuff finished in the summer. (Thanks to you, I have a Karabati in about the same state as yours that probably won't be done this summer... ;>) The good thing about projects is that they will wait patiently and without any tantrums! Hopefully, you'll find a wee bit of time, perhaps when LB is napping, to sit down and put your feet up and just relax. BTW, LB seems to be doing great! And that'l largely due to your loving care. Keep up the great work. Sending BIG hugs!

Amy at love made my home said...

Fantastic news for Buddy!! He really is doing so well from what you have said, and I imagine that even the tantrums are all a sign of growing up, although very tiring and wearing for you in the meantime!! I hope that you can get things settled with your Dad, I guess that it is a tough time for your family with all that has happened this year. It is really hard to parent a parent so no wonder you are exhausted from that apart from anything else. Sending you all best thoughts and love and hopes for some peace and quiet and relaxing times ahead. xxxx

Jill at emeraldcottage said...

not just me with the multiple WIPs then !
You're right, I cannot believe that Little Buddy is ever anything but gorgeously smiley and happy. Anyway he has the best Mum in the world (ok, second best, my children have the best Mum in the world :) so that explains the smiley part anyway :)
Hope things calm down a bit for you soon.

kathy b said...


Wishing you forty winks to refresh! SOmetimes a nap….always a nap….helps.
When the baby naps so must you. THats what all NEW mothers must remember with each babe. :) :)
The tantrums must be a sure sign of his trust in you. As crazy as they must be, they are a healthy thing!
One of our nurses would always say that before any major developmental milestone, there are tantrums.

Bless you. Love your lemon gifts.

Teresa Kasner said...

Your friend here in Oregon recommends that you quit working so you have more free time. :-) I'm sorry you're so tired.. I admire you as there is no way I could do all that you do. You're kind of a rock star in all that you accomplish. I also got a surprise from Tammy.. I will put it on my next blog post. What a sweetheart she is! ((hugs)), Teresa :-)

Bridget said...

I'm glad there was good news in an otherwise icky week! And I am really curious to hear about the Lemon Verbena Tea.

I hope you can take at least one little break for yourself this weekend.

Joy said...

Ah sweet Meredith, I'm so sorry to hear you so tired and, like Teresa and Dee, I'm wondering if it would be possible for you to have a break from work - just think on, if you are not feeling good yourself then you won't be able to feel good for anyone or anything else and you know, once we get really really tired we really are playing around with our health ….. lecture over!!!
I hope you can get things on a more even keel with your Dad, and soon, you have so much on your plate.
I'm so thrilled to hear the great reports about Little Buddy; that must be so heartening for you and family. I hope the weekend will allow you lots of relaxation and peaceful times my dear,
big hugs, xoJoy

Home Meadows said...

You have a lot on your plate. Taking care of a 3 year old is a full time job in itself. It wasn't that long ago that I remember some sleep deprived nights. I hope this busy "season" passes for you quickly and you'll be able to enjoy some down time soon. Sounds like your little buddy is doing great, congratulations on his progress. Your projects are all lovely and I hope you are able to work on them this weekend like you wish. Heather

Pooch said...

I am just peachy, I realize after reading the pace of your days. You provided a new vocab word for me..."physiatrist".

May you be blessed with a peaceful spirit and physical rest.

Blessings, Meredith.


Mrs. Micawber said...

Well I thought I was tired but compared with you I'm just mildly sleepy! I don't know how you do it Mere. Hope you have a good restful weekend.

That is great news about LB. Someday the tantrums will pass.... Hang in there and keep loving him as you are obviously doing.

"Lemon verbena tea" sounds so lovely. :)

Karen said...

Since you asked, I have been really tired today, too. I know it's because I didn't get enough sleep last night, stayed up way too late. I'm finding that I just can't go without sleep the way I used to, and it makes me mad! I've always been a night owl.

So good to hear the great reports about LB. He is really thriving!

You do have your hands full, and I admire you that you are so completely honest on your blog. It helps me relax and be able to admit that some days are just the pits!

Carla from The River said...

My prayers are with you. It sounds like a crazy week for sure. Thank you for taking time out to share with us.
xx oo

My Garden Diaries said...

You are know that?!?! The amount of time you are giving to others just shows that you have a big heart. I do hope that you have time to work on your projects as I know how that is something that is important to you. And I am glad you were sent this lovely package! You deserve it friend! Wishing you a great weekend....I have a 3 year old boy who threw 3 tantrums when we were out today! Ha! I can so relate! Nicole xoxo

Gracie Saylor said...

Hi Mere! So glad to read your post. In spite of your exhaustion you have encouraged me. I have lots of WIPS :( I am so pleased that LB is making good progress!!! And how precious it is to me that he enjoys playing with Fluffy :) I am sorry you are having more challenges with your dad, and pray that you will find peace in the midst of all, and get the rest you need. Tammy sent me something, too, and I need to post and show you more of her beautiful handiwork. How generous of her! Hope you have a lovely, creative weekend and get rested and recharged. xx

Taciana Simmons said...

I think you are tired my dear Meredith because you do so much ... Your weeks are full of excitement and so many things that requires more of you... I. Glad you have sweaters, shawls, table runners and al your other wonderful projects to relax with and enjoy a bit tranquility.
I'm so very happy that little buddy is doing so well. You are such an angel and I can feel how much he loves and trusts you ...even with all the tantrums. Have a great weekend my dear friend. :)

Babajeza said...

I'm the lucky girl here. On vacation, doing things in my own pace. I'm still tired. Next week (SEVEN days) I'm doing NOTHING!

So hopefully, things will slow down for you too. Hugs to you! Regula

CJ said...

Oh Meredith, I'm sorry things have been so exhausting for you, your schedule does sound so very full. Four hours is a LOT of driving, but Buddy is such a star, I can see that it was all worth it. You're right, I can't imagine the tantrums, he's such a sweetie. But there's the odd meltdown around here too, so I know how it can be. I hope you have a slightly more restful weekend and that you find some more time from somewhere. CJ xx

mynestofyarnandbuttons said...

Happy Birthday My Dear Sweet Meredith! I have missed quite a bit in your world!!! So first of all I wish you a happy, healthy and best year yet! You are so beautiful, love the picture of you and LB.
I can see why you are so tired, I sure hope you get some "you time" this weekend. All your projects looks so inspiring and will be gorgeous. Great news for Little Buddy and his doctor visits, you are caring for your son so diligently. I'm sending a big hug to you, you are a wonderful mommy and person!

kristieinbc said...

I'm sorry to hear you have had such an exhausting couple of weeks. Tomorrow is Saturday, and I'm sure you can't wait. I hope you are able to sit down with a nice cup of tea and one of your knitting/weaving/crochet projects and have some time to unwind from all that has been going on.

And no, I don't believe for even a second that sweet little boy ever does anything but smile. :-)

Betsy said...

Meredith, As I read your post I was reminded of just how much I admire you and your loving spirit. Goodness! I would be exhausted with your hectic schedule and yet you still find the time to craft items of such beauty. You are an inspiration to me. I'm sending you love and well wishes from Washington and hope you can feel my arms around you as I give you a BIG hug.

It's wonderful that Little Beddy is doing so well. That is entirely due to you and your family loving him so well. What an encouragement to hear from the doctors.

I got a surprise gift from Tammy too! She was a very busy girl to make so many wonderful things for her blogging friends. I'm so glad to have gotten to know all of you ladies here in blogland. I would have never met Taci, Teresa and Gracie in person without these blogs and you are ALL such sources of inspiration for me.
Meredith, I will be praying for you, your Dad, little Buddy and your family this week. For peace. For healing. And for rest.

Anonymous said...

Many prayers for your comfort and peace, you are a blessed and caring soul. Sometimes life is trying, but that sweet little face he has is adorable. All your time, effort, prayers and attention are all worth it. We are blessed by and enjoy the good days so much more because of the difficult ones. Being a caregiver is one of the most challenging, but rewarding things we can do in life. You are doing a great job with Little Buddy. :)

Chris said...

You wear many hats Meredith, time to take a break and grab a little time for yourself. I know easier said than done. I know sometimes it is really hard to unwind too. Life sure can be hard sometimes. Your projects are truly amazing I marvel at how much you accomplish every day. Hope you are able to have some down time this weekend. Chris

Jay said...

Oh Meredith I hope you find a moment to put your feet up over the weekend, sounds like you really need to - go out for a long walk in the fresh air. There are lots of positives in your post though, you manage to get a lot done as well as work, I don't think I could manage half of it. And Little Buddy must be doing so well with you, he has such a lovely smile.

Joyful said...

I like honesty and right now I can relate to being exhausted. How you manage to get so much crafting done despite being super busy & having a job is very impressive! When I see little Buddy's face it makes me smile and I'm happy to hear how well he is doing. Enjoy a relaxing ( I hope)weekend.

Claudia said...

Dealing with our father alone would exhaust even the most tireless person. Add in everything else, and no wonder you're tired.

My sweet little nephew is a little pistol and we love him for that.


cockney blonde said...

So sorry you are feeling so weary but what a lovely 'pick-me-up' receiving that gift from Kuwait. Also great news on Little Buddy's hospital visit. Hope you feel brighter and have more energy soon, x

Nana Go-Go said...

I'm tired just reading all that you accomplish in such a short time...and you manage to fit in some crafting time too! You go, Meredith, you're an absolute genius!That boy is just too doggone adorable!Restful weekend to you. xxx

linda said...

I'm sorry you are feeling tired Meredith but to be honest I'm really not surprised, you never seem to stop. All your makes are beautiful and you will get them finished in time. No wonder Buddy is doing so well with such a loving and supportive family behind him you are doing all the right things and it shows. I have been feeling tired too these past couple of weeks, I just have to remember that I'm not as young as I was and to slow down a little, it's very frustrating though. I hope that you have a lovely restful weekend, sending lots of hugs to you. :) xxx

Willow said...

I'm sorry it's been a crazy two weeks. May you have a calm weekend with no tantrums (yes, I do believe he could do a major meltdown--I have kids and grandkids-two adopted) :)

May you also have a weekend full of knit, crochet, and weaving!

Sweet Posy Dreams said...

You've certainly had your hands full. I really like the table runner, so pretty. Hope you have a relaxing weekend.

elns said...

Yay, for Little Buddy's excellent progress. Wishing you some rest and recuperation. LB is just showing you he knows he's got your unconditional love and is going to show off his skills of expression :) All the best, Mere. We're cheering you on.

Tree Hugger - Suzan said...

This weather will make anyone tired and not wanting to do anything. We had a cookout planned for tonight, but due to the heat, the humidity and the mosquitoes - we all met at our local Mexican place and had a great Happy Hour!!
So good that Buddy is doing so well!!
You mentioned some frustration with communication? What about using signs. There are awesome books of using 200 signs for Babies until they're old enough to talk to express their needs. I'm using signs with one year old Sadie and love seeing her sign water or milk and usually - MORE!!

Jennifer said...

I'm so glad to hear about Little Buddy's excellent progress. I'm sorry you haven't been feeling like yourself, though. I understand. I'm very impressed with all of your crafts but especially the weaving, that's coming along so beautifully. You're very good at it.

moonstruckcreations said...

I am not surprised you are feeling tired Meredith, take care of yourself, you need to get some well earned rest.

The gift is so thoughtful, what a lovely lady Tammy is. The tea will be delicious, I always bring different teas and coffees back from Jordan when I visit. They do have some of the yummiest food ever over there!


Stitchy Mc Floss said...

He's doing so awesome! Bless his heart, he's adorable. :)

Hope you get to rest a little soon. :)


Little Welsh House said...

My dear Meredith, I am sorry to hear that it's all been so tough for you recently. It's really brave of you to put your hand up and say that you are tired, and finding things hard - this is something I find really difficult. I am really glad that you have been sent a little treat at a time when things are so trying - you definitely deserve a beautiful cup of tea and a few calm hours, and I hope you get them - and plenty of rest - in the coming few days.


H xxx

Toni said...

Oh, I hope you're feeling better. Sounds like things have been overwhelming--glad you got a bit of yarn therapy in. It always helps, doesn't it?

Hurray for Little Buddy and the Physiatrist. I had never heard of such a thing until I started seeing one last year, and he was SO nice and so helpful--though it's probably best for both of us that I didn't chase him down the hall.....:)