There are just some weeks that get you down, weeks were you can't seem to regroup. Last week we heard of a young man who killed himself and it has broken every one's heart. He was 15 and when my kids were younger they swam at the same swim team this young man did. Well he was little then, just a little boy in fact. His older brother was friends with my Teenager for a few years, he was often at our house playing after swim practice.
Such a huge waste of a life that was just beginning to blossom. I went to the viewing yesterday with my friend Holly and my knitting friend Cathy. We were all connected to this family for a time. Cathy coached this young man when he was younger, and Holly's son swam with the same team. It was so hard to see his family so completely shattered. His Mom was taking charge but sobbing, his Father was just broken. Really there are no words to say except that you are so, so sorry for their loss and it wasn't their fault. As I hugged this poor woman and felt her sobbing it just was so incredibly sad. How do you get over something like this? How do they move on with their lives especially now that the memorials and services are over?
She feels she missed something, but boys are just plain stupid when they are younger. They are impulsive and never see the big picture of their actions. Girls are also but they tend to be a bit more developed at the age of 15. This is the swim team my oldest son was treated so horribly at by the coach. I have heard that this young man was also. It never stops, the bullying by this horrible man. I am not sure if it had anything to do with this child's death but I can't in my heart believe it didn't. Your coach is supposed to be the person you can go to with anything, the activity, like swimming, should be the least important aspect of your relationship. Well for a good coach that is how it should be. My heart is so sad for this family because at the age of 15 it could have been my son for all he went through there. We worked and worked with him to get him through that tough time. He has been gone from that team for 4 years this Spring, but I still see that he is affected by what this coach said to him, over and over again. It just breaks my heart for all the young people he has hurt and for all the incredibly stupid parents who stay..........
This, on top of a really tough work week, has just got me worn out. Plain and simply worn out. I did not even knit or crochet for five whole days, a record for me. So last night I forced myself to cast on a baby hat for Taci and her baby hat project. I am also going to make a crochet version or two from Teresa's crochet pattern she posted a day or two ago. Hopefully this will calm me down and help me deal with the week I had.
Of course this guy is going to help lighten up my heart. He is in 3T pj's now, he is growing!
He is waving, "Hi" to you!
I know you want to wave right back.