Friendship, it is something I woke up thinking about this morning and can not seem to clear from my head.. You see I am a very shy person, and the older I get the quieter I am, friendship does not come easy to me, but once it strikes I am as loyal as can be.
It seems to me when I was in high school I was the painfully tall, shy girl that everyone thought was stuck up, but in truth I was just really, really shy. College came and I gained my confidence through shared living environments, shared experiences and well alcohol, that helped a lot!
When my kids were younger it was so easy to strike up a conversation at the ball fields or at the pool where my kids trained. Our adult friends focused around our kids and their activities, so it was easy to establish a bond.
I think as we get older it is much harder to find true friends, well new ones that is. There are your faithful few that have been with you for years, what would we do without them? But finding new friends is hard when you are working and are so busy with your family life. It doesn't seem fair but that is the way it is, fostering new friendships is hard, even maintaining the deep ones you have is hard. Life is busy, and we women tend to put our needs on the back burner, not necessarily taking care of our friendships like we should, not watering and fertilizing them so they can grow.
I have had friends pass away in the last few years, I have had friends move away, and while we are still close it is hard to keep up with the everyday details that make a friendship work when there are miles that separate us. I am not so sure why this is on my mind today, maybe because another really close friend of mine is moving, not out of state, just about 20 miles away. I won't be able to drop off knitting magazines in her mailbox as I run to the market, or pop in and walk her dog when she needs help. It is another sign that our friendship, while strong will change.
I think that is why I cherish this blog of mine so much, and I try my hardest to nurture it and visit with all of you and love when you visit me. In my chaotic and busy life you are all a constant, you are there no matter when I have the opportunity to check in, and you care, just like I care for you. Funny how that is with people you have never met, you start to care about their lives, their families and of course what matters to them. So I just wanted to thank you all for being there. For your support and your friendship, I would not be near as happy without all of you here by my side.
I am leaving you with a photo of Little Buddy's friends, he sleeps with them, be assured you do not have to sleep with me!