On my birthday........

 

Well today is my birthday my friends.  I usually don't even mention it on this space because really it isn't a big deal to me but since my lovely blogging friend Kathy B of Compassionknit asked me to warn you all that her blog isn't cooperating right now I thought I would post.  It is bad enough that her letter L wasn't working on her keyboard but now apparently Wordpress isn't behaving.  So there you go if you don't have problems with the letter L then it is going to be something else that drives you crazy. This was the last photo of a 10 year old celebrating his birthday, with a birthday sloth named Sally on his head. 

I usually don't even think about my birthday because I am working.  But this year I am feeling a bit off it being on a Saturday and all.  Well I know my hormones are not balanced so there is that.  And usually I am so grateful to have another birthday because after having cancer 22 years ago and still being here, well that is reason to celebrate.  It might be the weather, come to find out yesterday there is a potential hurricane headed this way possibly Tuesday.  Not a big one, and not one to be really worried about still the barometric pressure might be affecting my mood.  I am prepared as you can imagine with batteries, flashlights and extra toilet paper in case there is a massive shortage for a month, I am covered in that department.

I think I am just missing things the way they used to be.  I miss my parents being here and always calling me on my birthday.  I miss friends I used to have that have drifted away for various reasons.  I miss my two older boys being young and running in and out of the house with friends.  I miss a wrinkle free face and no gray hair although I have truly earned every wrinkle and gray hair that I have.  I miss real conversations on the phone, people calling just to chat and catch up or seeing people I love not just text messages and social media posts. See I'm very melancholy today, but I will snap out of it because I have a 10 year old in a new Minecraft Creeper shirt, here making a Creeper face.  I try to be honest here in this space, not everyday is full of fun and wonderful memories or visiting incredible places.  Sometimes life is just what it is a difficult day or a difficult time for various reasons. 

When I  asked Little Buddy to give me a birthday smile this is what I got.

So my plans today are simple, rest, relax and knit on my fourth Harebell cardigan.  I plan on watching Gilmore Girls because it has been several years since I watched it start to finish and my friend Holly got me interested in it again.  I just finished Schitt's Creek and just loved it.  I am not into watching anything dramatic, scary or full of violence, there is enough of that in the world as it is.  I want to keep my brain free of all that if I can. 

And I plan on spending time with this Creeper guy who really lights up my life especially when I can get him to smile.   He is growing and thriving, my older sons are doing well minus an issue here and there.  We are all healthy, and 22 years ago I was not, so I have much to be thankful for on this birthday and everyday.  

Hope you all have a wonderful day, I am so grateful to have you as friends and grateful you take the time to visit this space of mine in blogland..