And suddenly it's September..............

 

Hello everyone!  I hope you are all still out there and are having a wonderful end of summer.  I am still reading your blogs and getting great joy from all of your adventures. Time is limited here so posting continues to be an issue, as well as my energy to get it done.  It is so far down the list of things that need to happen I fear there will not be a regular return anytime soon.

However, here are some updates:  Little Buddy, who is not so little as far as age or attitude started sixth grade.  His school has finally moved to their new facility much closer to my house which is wonderful. He has to attend early drop off three to four days a week so I can get to work, but he is managing the new length of his day without many issues so far.

Of course just as he was getting oriented to the school schedule we had a beast of a hurricane pass by north of us.  He missed two days of school last week, and there is Labor Day today.  We were so fortunate with the storm, I was prepared as far as food, water and batteries and thankfully we did not lose power.  My middle son, his partner and Luna came to stay, not to protect their Mom but because he is a bear to be around when there is no electricity and they lose it quickly where they live.  Little Buddy and I had a sleepover so they could use his bed, it was cozy with all the rain and wind outside and his little body tucked in close to mine, safe and sound.  My oldest son chose to work from my house all week but went back and forth, even early Wednesday morning when the storm was just skimming us while still in the Gulf of Mexico.  He took the bridge from Tampa over to my house, the route west was open but the route going east towards Tampa was closed with high waves and debris all over that portion of the bridge. We are all safe, thank you for all of you who checked up on us.  The poor people several hours north of us had so much storm surge damage it is hard to even comprehend the devastation.

My divorce was final at the end of July.  It has been a rough 2 years, well actually I can add a few more onto that.  I was hoping things would settle down now that we have a judge ordered schedule to follow, but no I was wrong.  I was told by many friends the finality of the divorce really changes nothing when dealing with someone like this, and they were right.  So on we go, taking each day and new issue as it comes.  Counseling helps me understand the complexities of the situation and helps me realize I am not alone in the issues I have had for over 30 years and continue to have.  There is so much help online as well, it really is such a blessing for people going through anything, knowing there are others that have gone through whatever adversity you are going through, they have survived and thrived!  That is my goal and I am making progress everyday.

There has been minor attempts at crocheting a blanket made with the good old Japanese Flower pattern given to me by my dear friend Teresa Kasner, who left us all way too soon.  I think of her often and miss her and her wonderful view on the world  To be honest even though I try to knit or crochet it  makes me feel ill.  This has happened one other time in my life, when I was fighting cancer, I could not play with yarn at all then.  So maybe the highest stress times of my life, when I need it the most, I simply can't muster up the energy or desire to knit or crochet.  I hope my mojo returns soon.

Little Buddy is now 12, he has all the signs of the dreaded puberty, including the ridiculous attitude that comes with it.  He has pimples on that beautiful freckle face of his so we often do a green tea mask to calm it all down.  He loves looking like a zombie. His behavior towards me has made a significant turn for the worse.  It is hard to be the parent who has rules.  However, we have help with his behavior therapists, a counselor and his neurologist for medication.  We take his behavioral issues minute by minute because things can change in a flash. He is a work in progress as we all are.

Hank and Bear just got groomed yesterday.  The put silly ties on them, those poor boys look like they had a very rough day at the office.

With so much going on in the world and personally with so many, I make a conscious effort to give thanks for all the wonderful things in my life everyday, and there are many.  I can't even tell you what a relief it is to come home to my own home and find peace, no walking on eggshells, no wondering what or who will meet me when I walk in the door.  Peace is a beautiful thing. Hoping you are all finding some moments of peace in your lives my friends.