Complete

The prayer shawl for my next door neighbor is complete. It turned out very beautiful even if it was not the easiest project to complete. It was very hard for me to stay positive knitting this beauty, as the yarn pulled apart again, and again. As I said before, my struggle with knitting does not even compare with fighting cancer. As this is undyed raw silk it also emits silk flumes that stick to your clothes. I told her to wear white with it and she is good to go.

I love talking to her about what she is thinking and feeling as she fights this huge battle. There is something about cancer that takes your breath away. You can't truly tell your spouse how scared you are. Because you are mostly scared for your family, not yourself. As a Mother and Wife your job is to protect your family. You can't talk to your parents because they are risking losing a child, a horrific thought for a parent of any age. If you are lucky like me you can

talk to your wonderful sister, but she too is at the risk of losing a close sibling and friend. Talking to a friend who has been through cancer seems like the best bet. Yesterday my neighbor made me promise I will be in her kids lives, their whole life, if something happens to her. Of course I will and if it gives her peace to know that, that is a good thing. I will make sure they are okay, but as I told her it is way to early to think these thoughts. Her fight has just begun, and her blood seems to be responding to the treatment. I am keeping my loving thoughts on her everyday. I am sure you are keeping your loving thoughts on those in your life that need them, too. If you have room in your day please send some her way.