Thursday, July 2, 2015

Checking in before checking out..........

Thank you, thank you, thank you all for your kind and loving words on my last post.  I can't tell you how many times I read each comment.  You are all such a beautiful part of my life and I thank you so much for you constant support.  We are waiting........... really that is all we can do but things are not good.  I have not seen my friend for two days, I think he is getting weaker and weaker.  The thing is we are off tomorrow on a little trip we have had planned for several months.  I can't believe the timing of this trip as now I feel so strongly we should stay home. but we cannot.  My wonderful SIL and her partner are getting married after 21 years together.  I am thrilled, so, so, thrilled that they can legally get married and that they have decided to make their beautiful, loving, relationship legal.  I was the first person they called to tell about the wedding, which made me cry.  I have been blessed to have these amazing women in my life and the lives of my children.  They are absolutely devoted to Little Buddy, as they always have been for my older two.  When I told each of my older boys about the wedding there was not even a second of hesitation before they told me they would like to be there to celebrate with their Aunts.  That has made me an extremely proud Mother.  I am not making this a political statement, nor a political blog, each of you have your own beliefs based on your own life choices, but I have always taught my children that love is love, and it doesn't matter what sex or color you are, love is love. 

So we head off tomorrow for this celebration and to spend time with family, but I fear our trip will be cut short as we will be summoned home before to many days have passed, to be near our friend and his family.  

While getting ready for this trip I forgot how much time it takes to pack up a little one.  There are clothes, shoes, cups and plates, diapers and blankets, even a few small toys. There is a walker, stroller and a car seat and don't even get me started on the diaper bag.  He has all he needs for over a week even though we will only be gone a few days.  As for me I have packed nothing, absolutely nothing yet except my knitting.  I do have my priorities after all.

This is going to be the Zick Zack Scarf by Christy Kamm.  This pattern was sent to me by the beautiful, wonderful, funny and so dear to me Chris.  She knows me well because as soon as she sent this pattern to me I started obsessing about it.  I looked and looked for yarn I had in my stash that would be suitable, but I felt I did not have anything that would work.  Then I had a fabulous idea.

I had made this Noro Silk Garden Shawl years ago.  I LOVE the colors but really in the 8 or 9 years I have had it I have not worn it over 3 times.  You see here I go again, I am obsessed with making shawls but I don't wear them that often.  So I frogged it, just like that.  I just sat down at my table and unraveled the whole thing, it was actually quite freeing.

Look at the beautiful yarn I have at my disposal and I did not have to buy a thing!  I swear I have been temped to buy yarn these past few stressful weeks, but so far I am holding steady on my buying ban.  That doesn't mean I have not bought a few needles and books, I mean I can only handle so much as far as knitting/crochet restrictions are concerned in the face of so much darn stress.  I have more paperwork to do today, laundry, sorting out Max, packing and more packing, before an early departure tomorrow morning.  I wish all of you a wonderful weekend.  I am so sorry I have been caught up in life and not caught up on blogging.  Please forgive me my absence on your blogs and on the happenings in your lives.  I will catch up upon returning and you know you can always email me anytime.  

Before we go Little Buddy wants to show you his superior, step sitting, skills.

He is a fast one and can scramble up these stairs in no time at all.  Last night he was cutting with scissors, there is just no stopping him.

On a sad note I heard that the wonderful Wink at A Creative Being, has passed away.  She suffered from depression and had had a very hard last few weeks.  That is the second incredible crochet/knit blogger/designer who has taken her life in the last year that I know of.  So sad that depression can so destroy the lives of so many wonderful people.  Hug your loved ones my friends, you never know who is suffering and will be helped by your love.


Amy at love made my home said...

My dear, you know, there is nothing to forgive. At all. Ever. I am so very sorry to hear that your friend is fading. I don't know if this is the right way to put it, but I hope that the rest of his time goes as well as it can. I hope you know what I mean by that. As for your travels for the wedding, I think that is wonderful and amazing and I could not have expressed my thoughts any better than you have. Love is love. Enough said. Hope you have a good time and can enjoy all the good moments. My thoughts, hugs and love are with you. xx

Joy@aVintageGreen said...

Way to Go Buddy !
Safe journey, how wonderful.
Amazing wool re-wind.
Sorrow for your friends.

Linda @ A La Carte said...

Meredith, I am so happy for you SIL and her soon to be wife. I have many gay friends and I am thrilled that they can now legally marry! I'm not political but I am open minded and loving and am proud of our country...even if it did take too long :) Little Buddy is a whiz kid at sitting on those steps! Good for him. Enjoy this weekend if you can and remember amidst Joy there is also Sorrow. Hugs!!


Lynne said...

Enjoy your time away Meredith! Congratulations to your SIL and her partner!
Great idea regarding the yarn, that scarf is going to be really pretty.
Way to go L.B. Keeping your Mom on her toes I see :)

Clare said...

Have a wonderful time at the wedding,look at little buddy go there's no stopping him, enjoy the time with your family
Clare xx

Betsy said...

I hope that you will be able to relax a little and enjoy yourself while away Meredith. It is a job to get a little one packed up isn't it? But your priorities Re spot on. Knitting first! It's what I always do too. Little Buddy is doing great and just look how proud he is of himself. Have a wonderful time and breathe deeply.

Christina said...

'Love is love' is what we teach our children, too. I didn't until now have the words to describe this but you gave me them. Love is love. It is the most important thing in live. Congratulations to your SIL and her partner. Enjoy the wedding!
I made this very same scarf and I wore it every day until it got too hot. It is very addictive to knit, too. The yarn you chose is very very delightful.
I am so sorry your friend is fading quickly. Life is harsh sometimes, and beautiful at the same time. I remember sitting at my fathers bed as he was slowly fading away, hearing my one year old laugh with delight in the hospital garden outside, feeling utterly happy and utterly sad all at once. I am thinking of you. x

kristieinbc said...

What a mix of joy and sorrow you have right now. I'll be thinking about you as you head off to celebrate your SIL's wedding, and hoping you don't have to cut your trip short. Please tell Little Buddy how impressed I was with the pictures of him turning to sit on the stairs. Well done!

elns said...

Buddy strikes me as a rather determined force of nature. hehe. i do not miss packing for small people. Well, let me take that back, at least you are completely accountable for what is in their bag. As they get older they tell you it's taken care of and then you find out they have 2 pairs of socks and 3 pairs of underwear for a week. ha!

You've got a lot going on but again you are able to focus on the good when you can. Your SILs getting married is a wonderful bright spot to celebrate in this life. I'm glad your whole family is so loving an onboard. I don't know about political stuff, but I'm with you on the human right to love. It's the closest thing to tangible hope for our species, non?

Gracie Saylor said...

Wishing you a safe and happy trip as you enjoy time with your family, and peace as you support your friend and his family during this time, Meredith. Transitions are challenging, happily and sadly so. I am sad that another gifted artisan gave up her life, but LB's transitioning as he is stepping up to new skills is so encouraging and the transition of your shawl to scarf promises to be beautiful :) Thanks for posting! xx

Grammy Braxton said...

My dear Meredith, how much you have going on in your life. I'm happy you will be able to go to the wedding. I send best wishes for a happy life to your SILand her partner.I am so sorry for your friend. It is so hard to say goodbye to our loved ones. My wish is that the passing is gentle and peaceful. Sending many, many hugs and love. AND good job, Little Buddy. You are growing so fast.

Bridget said...

I know that you know that your friend would want you to go to the wedding, so I hope you will be able to enjoy it and think of it as the beginning for a couple who have waited so long. My mother used to say that even if a day is your saddest, it could easily be someone else's happiest day of their lives. Seems like you are in this situation.

Little Buddy is pretty amazing - good for him.

Have a safe and wonderful trip, and enjoy your family.

Chris said...

All you need is love dad dah de da love is all you need! Congrats to the two Aunts!! I happy to hear you all can attend the wedding, it's a special family time. Packing for a little one is big, so much to think about. One trip to my mil's I packed three knitting projects and no toothbrush and no undies!! That was a hard one to explain!
Now that Zick Zack looks great , it will be fantastic in Silk Garden! I'd better get going on one too lol!
Life can sure be a perplexing mix of joys and sorrows, and the timing can leave us winded at times. Have a lovely trip!
You are very dear to me too! Chris

Teresa Kasner said...

My goodness.. you have a busy time right now! I am happy for your SIL and her partner and that you will all be there to celebrate with them. Love is Love. I hope your friend hangs in there for a while - I know how much relief you have brought to him with your ministrations. You are an angel. I hope the trip goes well and the ceremony and that you actually get time to knit. ((hugs)), Teresa :-)

Pradeepa said...

Congratulations to your SIL and her partner. Enjoy the celebration!
Sorry to hear about your friend.
The recycled yarns are beautiful. They are going to make a wonderful scarf! Little Buddy is amazing!

Teresa Hennes said...

That scarf is going to be beautiful! I hope the trip goes well and your friends have a long and happy life togeather. Not that they haven't already, but...This will help so much with insurance, etc. I feel that anyone who loves each other should be able to be married. What difference does it make on who loves who!
I bet LB is so proud of himself! Now cutting with scissors. That takes some major coordination! I can just see the concentration on his face! Have a great trip and I hope you can stay and enjoy family time.

CJ said...

How lovely about the wedding, a truly happy occasion, I'm so pleased that it's possible for your sister-in-law and her partner to be married now. I know that it is a very difficult time for you to go, but a change of scenery and such a happy event will be a good thing. I know what you mean about packing for children. Sometimes we've been out for an afternoon and you'd think we were going for a week. Good to see you have the knitting ready, that's always the first thing I put out as well. I hope you have a really wonderful time and that you're not called home. CJ xx

Becky L. said...

Have a good time away with family. I have thought about unraveling an old wool sweater but it's been years so I don't really want to mess with it. Never heard of the frogging before. Glad that LB is learning new skills and stair sitting can be good! Take care and hope your friend is ok in his last days. Hard on you as you leave for awhile. :-}

Janet said...

I hope you have a wonderful weekend with your SIL and that it doesn't get cut short. Congratulations to your SIL and her partner.
I enjoy frogging old knitted items and making something new. It feels like new yarn but without the expense.
I love the pictures of Buddy, what a star.

Stins said...

Have fun at this extra special wedding!!
I am so glad it is also possible for your friends now...
And little Buddy is still his sweet and brave self; what a precious little boy he is!
I am so sorry to hear about Wink too... Life must have been so hard for her...
Lots of love and big hugs, Mirjam.

Caffeine Girl said...

You are really having an intense year, Mere. Truly a a time when life and death are alternating presences in your life. I am so sorry about your friend. But it does help to have things to celebrate, too, and I know the wedding will help restore your soul.

Yikes, packing for LB looks like a daunting job. But then what is more exciting than mastering scissors?

Your life is full because you have so much love. I hope you have a wonderful weekend.

Crafty in the Med said...

First of all I need to congratulate Buddy on his step sitting skills. I can see he has got that all sorted now. Mountains will be nothing for Buddy you'll see!!!

Sigh!!! life can be wonderful but it sure does bring us nasty surprises too!! I so feel for you we've also had some upsetting news from a member of the family and are praying that it will not be so bad as it looks.
I just feel like sighing today!!!
I so agree with you Love is Love and there are no buts about it!!!

Have a wonderful break!!!

keep well

Amanda xx

mamasmercantile said...

Hope you have a truly wonderful time away and many congratulations to your sister in law and her partner, may they have many more happy years together. Very impressive Little Buddy. God bless.

Karen said...

Congratulations to the happy couple! It's so hard when such joy is mixed with sorrow, for your friend. All will be well and work out as it should for your weekend, my dear friend. Hugs to you.

Valentina Olden Patterns said...

Ooh, congratulations to your SIL and her partner from me, too! I can hardly imagine how happy they are, and it's so nice that they can share their happyness with their family! : )
Enjoy your trip, a little break will do you well, I think... xx

WildflowerWool said...

Enjoy the wedding! I totally agree, love is love.

Joyful said...

So much going on! Just a quick note to say safe journey & strength for what lies ahead. Congrats to the couple who are getting married.

Housewith Hearts said...

Have a lovely weekend with your SIL & wife! My own SIL married her partner three years ago and it was one of the best weddings I've been to. Like you, I have no political axe to grind, but when people are right for each other it's a beautiful thing. I'm sorry to hear about your friend, what terrible timing. Little Buddy is doing fantastically there!! X

Judy S. said...

Just checking in after being gone for so long. Hope you have a wonderful celebration with your SILs. So sorry to hear about your friend; you've been through a lot recently. Your Little Buddy is an amazing fellow, and I hope he had a wonderful birthday! Hugs to you and safe travels as well.

Mrs. Micawber said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend, Mere. I hope you can enjoy your trip despite the sorrow you will be carrying with you.

Way to go LB! There's no stopping that little guy.

How fun to take that yarn apart and be able put it back together any way you like! :)

Tammy@T's Daily Treasures said...

Dear Meredith, you certainly never have to apologize for living life, taking care of business, and spending time with family. No one has any expectations of you other than do what you can, when you can. I'm happy you will get to be a part of a loving union though it is certainly made bittersweet as your friend is slowly drifting away. These joys and sorrows are a constant of life. Even moreso as we get older. Bless you and yours, Tammy

kathy b said...

Oh your sister in law and her partner sound so wonderful. I am thrilled for all the couples who can now marry and enjoy the rights so many others choose to throw away ! I am pretty sure more same sex couples stay married than opposite sex couples.
Praying for your friend and you as the journey leads you apart for now.
Lil buddy is as always an inspiration.
Your frog is awesome and the new plans even better
Travel safely. Celebrate heartily

Gillian said...

I hope you enjoy the wedding and aren't called back again early. It's hard work getting ready to go away on a trip even if it is only a few days! Your yarn is lovely and so is the pattern. I always love the thought of a shawl but rarely wear one. I'm more likely to wear a cardigan and can feel a real I-need-to-crochet-myself-more-cardigans phase coming on. I've finished one and started another but have plans for several more.

Ingrid K. said...

Hi Meredith, it just warms my heart to read about all the things you managed to express so well in just one post! Thanks for doing this. Lots of hugs to you and little Buddy!!! And all the best for the lovely ladies getting married!!!
Ingrid xx

Jo said...

Sending you love and kind thoughts Meredith. Jo from across the water XX

Dee said...

Way to GO, Little Buddy! Those steps look like a mighty good place to sit! :-)

Congratulations to your SIL and her partner. SO happy for them. We had a friend get married last week ------ to see the joy in Bernie's eyes. Well, this just CAN'T be wrong as far as I am concerned.



Annie Cholewa said...

Dearest Meredith, I somehow missed this post. I do hope that you had a great trip and that you didn't return home to sadness. Two gents of our acquaintance recently married after many years together and I think it was one of the most beautiful and joyful ceremonies I have ever witnessed. As you say, love knows no boundaries. My heartfelt congratulations to your SIL and her partner x