I have had a very long week that has left me really, really grumpy. My low back hurts, my head hurts, and my heart is still hurting. I have had a particularly long week at work which has added to my brain hurting, too!
I am nothing if not grumpy today, I mean really, really grumpy.
Today I take my Mother's ashes into the Neptune Society so they can be joined with my Dad's. I will pick up his death certificates, drop off some of their clothes to be donated to the rehab facility they were both at so many times. A lot of those lovely residents have no family and nothing new to wear. I will do more paper work for him, write more checks and call on some medical bills that don't seem quite right. This is a part time job in itself. Thank goodness his caregiver Stacey is packing up his place, I have no time or energy for that. Then there is the constant worry of his two cats to place, one is so gorgeous and sweet, the other is a pit bull. My son is allergic to them so having them here is not an option. Then we have school drop off and pick up, two different therapies and some time outside for my little one before dinner, a bath and bed. The pictures above aren't even recent, they were taken at the farm over a month ago.
I find myself in these crazy days feeling such a deep exhaustion that I never seem to recover from. I know that sounds dramatic and I don't mean it to, it just is a constant with me these days. I feel I am not the best therapist, or mother for that fact, and don't even get me started on being a nice wife, I am not.
And for my friends here in blogland I feel very disconnected to you as I have not read a blog in what feels like a month, well actually it might be a month. How are you? What have you been up to? Any news?
So I take things day by day, and some days this past week I took them hour by hour. I am just hoping to sit down and knit at the end of the day today, not much to ask I think. But the last few weeks that has rarely happened. So sorry for my grumpy mood, that is just the state of things right now, I am nothing if not honest.
I hope to see you all soon, maybe that can be a goal for me this weekend, just read a few blogs and get back in the swing of things. Wishing you all the best.