When things get hard in life I make things. It makes me feel better. The feel of yarn traveling through my hands, it gives me peace.
I have been missing this lately, really there has been little time for creating, during the week I am just too tired. I feel like I have lost my purpose a bit with yarn, I need to get back to it because it helps me stay grounded during my busy days.
This weekend has been so hard. My oldest and two of his dear friends flew out to San Diego from all over the country to be with the family of their best friend. They got in very late, they all met for the first time since the death of their beloved friend. They celebrated his life with a paddle out on Del Mar Beach in the cold and windy weather Saturday morning. Most people swam, my son and his friends were part of that group. They threaded water for a long time, holding flowers in the air as the ashes of their dear friend were spread into the ocean. They were there for his new wife, they were there for his family and they were there for each other. I am so happy he could make the trip, it is the first step in the healing process. The whole thing was covered live on the news in San Diego, over 11 minutes of coverage about a young man who was in the navy who lost his life way to soon. Can you even believe that? 11 minutes of uninterrupted coverage of a ceremony to celebrate a life, that is amazing to me in this day and age of horrible news. Today they are on their way home, it will take hours with layovers and time changes and I just have to say I can't wait to wrap my arms around my son and tell him how proud of him I am.
Late this morning the mother of the young man who passed away sent a group text to the mom's of the boys who are still here. She said she was so proud of our boys, the men they have become, for being there for her family, when she hugged them it helped to soothe her soul. That is about the most beautiful text I have ever received. I wrote back that all of us have raised these boys in our own way, all of us have contributed to them growing up into the men they are, and that includes her. So much sadness my friends, there is just so much sadness.
So after I sent her text back I went to my yarn stash because the one thing I can do for her is make her something. I can make her a shawl that she may never even use, but it will be filled with love from me. She can wrap it around herself when she is sad or lonely and know that love has been put into every stitch. So that is where you will find me every minute I am free, creating something to represent the love I had for her son and the compassion I feel for her and her family during this horrible time. I hope it is a hug that will help to soothe her soul, and I hope making it will help to soothe mine.
Hug your family and friends, life changes fast.